why..

[ceagle]

Why does the doctor still feel bad when the patient dies..?
it is a life.. and it scrapes at one's cognition, wondering if there was yet something more one could've done... -_-
In all my successes, there is the occasional torment, the loss of knowing you had the life in your hands, and held it, but it slipped away..
Today, I tried to salvage my dad's old computer..
They didn't tell me everything that they'd seen it do, and thus I was unprepared to do more.. I didn't know about the overheating... how long they'd been seeing it, and how bad it had gotten.. and how close it was to death.. :|
All I knew was that they couldn't get it to start up in almost a month..

..and I got it to start up.
A success, in some small way. It would have been great.. if only...

I began salvaging files. I saw over 1,000 in the documents folder.. I scooped them up as feverishly as I could.. transferring them to my drive. I began to feel confident. I had saved systems like this before..

And then a restart..

The patient never breathed again :<

*sigh*

I just wonder what would've.. ......well.. I, ..

i guess at least I saved a few.

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